lack of/too much

Sleep. It kills me. The past week or so I've slept about 3 hours a night.

Then ill get 14 hours sleep and still be tired when I get up.

I really don't know what's going on but its fucking with my head and Im having trouble reaching "normality" because of it.

Its now 4 23am and I haven't slept at all, not a wink.

The thing that gets to me is that most of the time im the kind of person that can fall asleep anywhere, anytime. But sometimes its just the opposite.

Im still full of fury and anger. Im still not psyched on much but still looking forward to tour.

Doing two sydney shows in a few weeks which should be heaps fun.

Later

considering

In other news, so not psyched on life. Hating people so much and not getting along with anyone apart from my real good mates.

One of my best mates move to qld soon, gonna miss him but I know he'll kill it up there and I wish him the best of luck!

Fuck, listen to the new dropsaw and palehorse.

Last couple of days

Been listening to...

Shattered realm - From dead end...
Life or death - Sentenced
Snake eyes - Demo
The dead walk! - Re-animation
Bitter end - Climate of fear

That feeling

I've had that feeling for a while now and well, I didn't contain it very well. Its probably the worst feeling I could have. Indescribable really...Intense rage, where your whole body heats up and you feel barely able to move. All over something that I probably don't need to get worked up over. I can't help how I feel though.

You're wrong

People say have no regrets don't look back, you only live once etc etc etc. I mean, how do we know we only live once? Anyway that doesn't matter. What i trying to say is fuck that don't look back shit. I'm content to dwell on the things that have gone wrong in my life and the things I've missed out on. And what could have been with some things, well I always wonder what could have been, and look deep inside myself to see where I went wrong. Or look at other people in disbelief and wonder "How could have they done that?" Not only things that have happened to me or been done to me, but in life in general.

My point is theres nothing wrong with dwelling on the past or wondering where you went wrong or what could have been. Theres also nothing wrong with being psyched on life and not looking back (although i said fuck it, I didn't mean it doesn't have its place for some people) either. I wish i could be psyched on life and everything like that. But i can't. I haven't been truly happy ever I don't think and I'm not whining about it, Its just a fact.

I've been reading Henry Rollins' "Do i come here often?" a lot lately. Something that really got to m was how he talks about in order to get his work done and do what he needs/wants to do he cant be in a relationship. Sex, women, relationships they all come second, third, last.

I'd love to be like that and just concentrate on my goal but the truth is i WANT to share out my time. I wanna be there for my girlfriend or whatever. I just hope no one ever asks me to choose between my life goals and them.

My sleeps been fucked up recently. Some nights I sleep 12 hours wake up, eat breakfast and hang around for a bit then go back to sleep during the day. Other nights I can't get to sleep for 5 hours and when i do I'm drifting in and out.

I might go sleep now.

November

I go on this soon. Got finalised the other day. Cannot wait.

Dropsaw interview with Jrock

When and how did dropsaw form?

Early 06 at the Cambridge hotel over a few beers,good mates all keen to start a new band.
It all went from there.


You guys did a demo then followed that up with missing limbs, your first album on trial and
error. what are the main differences between these releases and your new album, victims or
killers?

The new albums heavier,angrier,darker and more metal. We've had a few line up changes since missing limbs and that's changed the overall sound of the band. We all love the likes of sworn enemy, ringworm, etc and that's the way we want to write music.


The new album seems to have more of a metal influence than missing limbs, do you agree?

Fucking oath it does, ha ha. It's definitely a good thing though.


What kind of things do you like to talk about when writing your lyrics?

Things that fucking piss me off...racism, dead shits, preachers.
And things that rule the world...Steven segal, horror, Stallone, evil.


You guys are all from the Newcastle area originally, theres been some great bands come out
of Newcastle, does this have an influence on your sound do you think?

Definately. Everything Luke Crew's done. Also, the new bands coming through keep me stoked - Crosscheck, Onslaught, Hollow, Laugh or cry.


You guys have been over to Perth once before, any plans to do that again? or perhaps a nz
tour or something of the likes?

Perth's back on in November with our good friends Samsara, never really thought about NZ but there's talk of Japan early next year. That'd be fucking slithering!


The new albums a lot darker, does this reflect on your life at the current time or
something completely different?

My life's currently ruling so it's definitely not that. I think it has a lot to do with the fact I'm realising how shit the state of this world is. I can see there's a lot of good but i guess for every good thing there's something equally as shit just around the corner. Positive, huh?


Favourite bands to play/tour/hang out with?

Ringworm, sworn enemy, 100 demons, municipal waste, slipknot. Would love to hang out with Phil Collins and tell him not to ever get married again.


Any thanks or last words jrock?

Thanks for the memories and when are you gonna have a beer with me Tommy?

Had a dream

last night that the world was ending, some kinda green house effect thing. And everyone was panicking. The worst thing was that all the important people (politicians, sport stars) were living in bunkers and camps, these were supposedly the more protected areas. Fuck knows.